Sunday, 29 July 2007

20 years on

I can't believe this photo was taken 20 years ago tomorrow.

It would have been our 20th wedding anniversary had David and I stayed together.

Adam and Steven were my best men, you can see why.

I love the size of Steven's carnation compared to his lapel.


Saturday, 28 July 2007


Had some good news today that Emily ( Mother In Law ) is on the mend, even be it very slowly.She has her eyes open now and looks for Hubby walking through the door ( bless ). She is off dyalasis and the respirator and is asking how people are. Her wound is still open as she still has to keep having it cleaned daily but all in all, getting there. Her temperature keeps slipping up but is under control for the moment.Will keep you posted of further news. Thank you to all for your prayers and messages of support. They have all been passed on to her and her hubby, who are very grateful and have asked me to thank you all for your kindness.Hope you're all having a great weekend and that the weather is being kind to you.


Monday, 23 July 2007

down in the dumps

Did you ever have one of those days when you're down in the dumps?

When everything's horrible and you're sick of life's bumps,

I've  felt rather " off  it " today , don't know why,

Just out of sorts and wanting to cry,

My Mum's had a nasty bout of poorly chest and cold,

It's really quite nasty, or that's what I'm told,

I think it's the onset of her bug , I'm sure,

Cos I'm feeling quite miserable and I didn't before,

So I thought that I'd write here and tell all my friends,

Cos you all have the knack of healing, that sends,

All the way over here, right to my gloom,

It's amazing how it travels all the way to my room,

I hate feeling gloomy, it's just isn't me,

Maybe tomorrow I'll feel brighter, just wait and see.


Sunday, 22 July 2007

bogus charities

The other day, I had a leaflet posted through the door asking for unwanted clothing etc, to be sent to poor countries needing help. .I raided my wardrobe today and managed to find four big sacks full of clothes. I felt really proud of myself for throwing out some clothes that I always NEVER thought I could live without. I even found some clothes for a baby girl, that I was saving for the day I maybe become a Granny ( well, you never know ). Earlier tonight Adrian suggested that I check out this company to make sure they were legitimate and I couldn't believe it when I found out that they WEREN'T. Apparantly this company is now dissolved. I was furious to think that people could use the misfortune of others less fortunate than themselves, to their own gain. Probably to sell them at a car boot or something. How low are these people ? Needless to say that I have now decided to take my donation to Oxfam instead... BLOOMIN' CHEEK !!! 

By the way, I forgot to mention that I won £47.00 on the lottery, ( I had 4 numbers ) then I won £6.00 on a scratchcard, £2.00 on another scratchcard and £2.00 on lottery dream number. WOW !!  £57.00 all in one night.... How lucky can a girl get ?

Thursday, 19 July 2007

schoolgirl Mums

Young girls having babies

Full of "ifs" and " maybe's"

Talking of abortion

Get things in proportion

Live your teenage life first

Cos all your dreams of life burst

When you're tied down with a baby

Just what would everyday be

Nappies,feeding,sleepless nights

Needing babysitters

Endless fights

Because the things you like to do

Just go by the wayside too

Enjoy your youth, go out and play

Leave babies til another day




Wednesday, 18 July 2007



Writer's block,
Wow !! that's a shock,
It is for me anyway,
I'm just sat here chilling,
Guess my mind's just not willing,
I always have something to say,
I could rant here all night,
Of the families plight,
Aint nobodies business but ours,
And I don't dry my washing,
With everyone watching,
Besides, it would just take me hours,
So, I'm off to my bed,
It's better least said,
I would just put my foot in my mouth,
And if I find tomorrow,
I'm facing more sorrow,
That's it, I'm off, flying South.
Night night, God bless all  x x x

Monday, 16 July 2007




Just to let you know that Emily is no longer hooked up to the iron lung as she is breathing on her own now.

This also means that she can speak, as the pipe was into her throat and lungs keeping her from talking.

She still has an infection that is keeping her wound from healing, so she is to have a scan today to find out exactly where it's coming from. Hopefully then she can start to recover.

She is still in intensive care and is expected to remain there for the next few days at least. But all in all, she is making slow progress in small steps.

Thank you all so much for your prayers and your support and I know I can rely on you to keep Emily in your thoughts and prayers for a while longer yet. It seems to be working.

Also for Vincent, her Husband. He has had an awful time through this and it showed on Thursday when he broke down and cried to us. It was heartbreaking to see him like that and I ask that prayers go up for him too, to give him strength to get through this.

Many thanks once again for your support

I will keep you informed of Emily's progress.


Sunday, 15 July 2007

Where's the sunshine gone ?

I wish this rain would stop now,

It's getting so mundane,

I really wish I knew how,

To find the sun again,

Maybe it's gone on  holiday,

Maybe it's lost it's way,

This is such a sorry day,

I need the sun again,

Although I love the sound of raindrops,

I feel so melancholy,

Still, I'll be happy when this rain stops,

And I no longer need my brolly,

I love to feel the warm glow,

Of the sun upon my face,

Then, where does all the rain go?

Maybe to the same place,

I think I'll take a journey,

To find the sun, so bright,

Maybe, if it's heard me,

It will shine tomorrow, it might.






Friday, 13 July 2007

And I thought it was just me.

      Famous People Affected By An Anxiety Disorder



No you aren't alone. A great many people have/had to deal with an anxiety condition. Famous people, too, such as:

Naomi Campbell (model)
David Bowie (singer)
John Stuart Mill (philosopher)
John Cougar Mellencamp (musician, actor)
Johnny Depp (actor)
Anne Tyler (author)
Shecky Greene (comedian)
Courtney Love (singer - actress)
Sally Field (actress)
Jim Eisenreich (baseball)
Barbra Streisand (singer)
Ann Wilson (singer)
Winona Ryder (actress)
Howard Stern (media)
Anne Tyler (author)
Olivia Hussey (actress)
Cher (singer, actress)
Pete Harnisch (baseball star)
James Garner (actor)
Tom Snyder (host)
Kim Basinger (actress)
Earl Campbell (football star)
Donny Osmond (singer)
Marie Osmond (entertainer)
Oprah Winfrey (host)
John Candy (comedian)
Edvard Munch (artist)
Beverly Johnson (supermodel)
John Madden (announcer)
Howie Mandel (comic)
Sam Shepard (playwright)
Lani O'Grady (actress)
Robert Burns (poet)
Isaac Asimov (author)
Alanis Morisette(singer)
Sissy Spacek (actress)
Robin Quivers (radio host)
Barbara Gordon (filmmaker)
Burt Reynolds (actor)
Sir Isaac Newton (scientist)
Charles Schultz (cartoonist)
Michael English (singer)
Sir Laurence Olivier (actor)
Dean Cain (actor)
John Steinbeck (author)
W.B. Yeats (poet)
Leila Kenzle (actress)
Aretha Franklin (singer)
Joan Rivers (actress)
Deanna Carter (singer)
Dave Stewart of the (singer – Eurythmics)
Al Kasha (songwriter)
Charlotte Bronte (author)
Nikola Tesla (inventor)
Roseanne Barr (comedian)
Naomi Judd (singer)
Susan Powter (tv host)
Sigmund Freud (psychiatrist)
Carly Simon (singer)
Willard Scott (weatherman)
Nicole Kidman (actress)
Sheryl Crow (musician)
Anthony Hopkins (actor)
Dick Clark (television personality)
Ray Charles (musician)
Eric Clapton (musician)
Edie Falco (actress)
Barbara Bush (former First Lady - U.S.)
Tony Dow (actor director)
Michael Crichton (writer)
Robert McFarlane (former National Security Advisor - U.S.)
Bonnie Raitt (musician)




Happy birthday Mother,

 Love you always

x  x  x


Thursday, 12 July 2007

Im back

Hi everyone,

Yes, Im back from Northern Ireland and I have to admit the flight wasn't as bad as I remembered, although I'd still rather have my feet firmly on the ground at all times.

Well, Emily is still in intensive care and critically ill but she is making steady progress, one step at a time.

I didn't recognise her at first, as she has tubes and machinery fitted everywhere but I still saw the pretty, friendly, welcoming face I always see when I look at her.

I just know she will come through this and I still wish EVERYONE would keep thinking of her and all the family in their prayers.

Dad is so lost without her and he broke down in floods of tears today as we were leaving, he says his heart is broken  and he didn't know if he could go on and I felt so useless to him.

I intend to write a more lengthy journal in a while but I just wanted to fill you in for now.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying life...It's too short not to..

Love Pat  x x x



Sunday, 8 July 2007


As you know, my Mother In Law is critically ill in Ulster Hospital at the moment recovering from pneumonia and a gall bladder operation.I love her very much and am very anxious to go and see her. I have to focus on that as I have to do the dreaded "F " word tomorrow.... FLY.....I absolutely LOATHE it. We usually go by ferry from Stranraer and I LOVE it but tomorrow, as it's quicker and cheaper, we have to FLY....It also means we have no car when we get there, as it will be left behind at the airport.I have suffered from agoraphobia for fifteen years now and anyone who suffers it will know EXACTLY how I'm feeling at the moment.I also suffer some form of separation disorder, as I can't be alone anywhere, I HAVE to see a familiar face wherever I am. I couldn't even be alone in the house at one point, although I have won that battle I hope.I panic when I'm away from home too, so that's another battle I have to fight over the next few days.This is SO not me. I have sung in front of people and am a very outgoing person really. It's SO frustrating, I swear at myself under by breath...My Brother suffers the same problem and so does Steven, to an extent. I'm beginning to agree with the Doctor's that it IS a hereditary thing but where did it start ?Oh well, no point worrying myself about it. I HAVE to get on and do it, for Emily.



Friday, 6 July 2007


Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am an avid animal lover. So much so that I have five cats ( three are rescued ) three dogs ( one is rescued ) and fish in the pond.

Over the past few weeks, I have had four bird rescues. It seems they know where to land when they need somewhere to die. This worries me somewhat.

The first rescue was a racing pigeon that landed on the decking, as we were sat looking through the window to the garden. It couldn't fly and was exhausted. We rang through to the RSPCA, who gave as a number to report that this pigeon had come to us, so that it's owner knew how far it had flown.

They just said that we should give it food and water and somewhere warm to rest up for a couple of days until it had the strength to fly home. We did everything they said but found it dead the next morning. It looked as if it had a heart attack or something. Bless !!!

The next one was a little bird Adrian and I saw on the way round to my Mum's house in the next street. It was so tiny and not long since left it's Mummy.

Again, we took it and tried to see if it had fallen from it's nest but nothing in sight, so we took it home and put it in a warm place with food and water and left it until it found strength to fly home... It died the next morning..

The third one was when Adrian was away from home for a few days. It just flew into the garden unable to fly. I couldn't see any damage, so I kept it overnight .... it died.

By now I'm getting a little hesitant to help our fine feathered friends and decided not to intervene in future.. that is.. until last night when a pigeon flew into our back garden...AGAIN..

It just looked very wet from the rain and seemed to be exhausted... Same routine, only this time, I let it sleep in the outhouse with the door slightly ajar so that it could fly away when it chose to.

Got upthis morning and .....yes, you guessed it....IT DIED ....

Why do they keep coming to me just to die here ? It upsets me ..... Steven gets very perturbed bless him...

I wonder if that's why I don't get many visitors round...hmmm !!! 


Please say a prayer for Emily, my wonderful Mother in law and friend.She's been ill in hospital for a while now and has just undergone a life threatening operation today.She's in a critical condition for the next five days and I pray every day that she'll be well again.

She collapsed in Tenereiff with a chest infection, which developed into pneumonia.She couldn't be flown home for while as she was too weak to be moved. Then an infection set in and we all feared the worst.But, being a trooper,she started to get better again. Then she took a backstep and had an infection from gallstones. This operation today is to remove her gallbladder and anything causing her problems and stopping her from getting well again.

She has treated me, as she does everyone, with respect and love and kindness since the first time we met and I love her very much.

Time will tell as they say and these next few days are going to be very long days for us.

We are all waiting with bated breath and prayers that she pulls through this awful time.

I will keep you all posted..

Thank you my friends

Pat  x x x

Tuesday, 3 July 2007