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Sunday, 8 July 2007

THE DREADED F WORD

As you know, my Mother In Law is critically ill in Ulster Hospital at the moment recovering from pneumonia and a gall bladder operation.I love her very much and am very anxious to go and see her. I have to focus on that as I have to do the dreaded "F " word tomorrow.... FLY.....I absolutely LOATHE it. We usually go by ferry from Stranraer and I LOVE it but tomorrow, as it's quicker and cheaper, we have to FLY....It also means we have no car when we get there, as it will be left behind at the airport.I have suffered from agoraphobia for fifteen years now and anyone who suffers it will know EXACTLY how I'm feeling at the moment.I also suffer some form of separation disorder, as I can't be alone anywhere, I HAVE to see a familiar face wherever I am. I couldn't even be alone in the house at one point, although I have won that battle I hope.I panic when I'm away from home too, so that's another battle I have to fight over the next few days.This is SO not me. I have sung in front of people and am a very outgoing person really. It's SO frustrating, I swear at myself under by breath...My Brother suffers the same problem and so does Steven, to an extent. I'm beginning to agree with the Doctor's that it IS a hereditary thing but where did it start ?Oh well, no point worrying myself about it. I HAVE to get on and do it, for Emily.

 

 

6 comments:

ukgal36 said...

I will be praying fo you Pat..I admire your strength..typical woman though..we buckle down and do what we have to no matter what the odds.....
Continued prayers for Emily..
God Bless...
Lyn

nightmaremom said...

Pat I will keep you in good thoughts as well as continue to pray for Emily.  I know you'll find the strength to do this....  
love ya
d

pharmolo said...

Hope you'll be fine on the journey, and hoping for a speedy recovery for your mother-in-law over in Northern Ireland.

cgtperkins said...

Oh, I know this is hard for you, but hopefully with all of us in J-Land rooting for you, you will make it fine. I will keep you and your mother in-law in my thoughts and prayers!!
Good Luck and Big Hugs
Carrie

seraphoflove9001 said...

Pat...I know you will do this for Emily. My heart just goes out for you. I will keep you and Emily in my prayers.
Lisa

gazker said...

Keep strong Pat, you can do it.
Gaz xxx